This is a lovely post Ellie and I do hope more people are paying for the privilege of reading your thoughts. Its worth it. The strategies you mention are all about connection and sacrifice, to make sacred. I know you have also been taught by my dear friend Valentin and I hope to meet him in a couple of weeks in London and catch up. He is off to Toulouse next week. I love the picture with the dog, how much we need the non-human world now!
Hi, David, and thanks so much for this lovely comment. Yes -- connection and sacrifice to make sacred, exactly that. I think it's all about remembering the original unity of all things and trying to act and create and feel from and into that unity. Say hi to Valentin from me!
Jesus Christ, with the exception that I'm not you, you not me, you've written the fucking screenplay of my life, Ellie. From genius to dickwad in 30 seconds. I know this. Trying to become what is expected; my life performative more often than lived. Trying to write in a whirlwind of oh-so-self-conscious doubt. Haunted by the ghosts of past failures. Smart but so dumb. Always striving to tell my ugly, ugly alcoholic, violent father the news, that I didn't become his prophesy for me: a waste of space, or, as he termed it, a garbage man. Dear Dad, oh to be a happy, confident, smiling garbage man these days. A man that channels the big magic (thank you Elizabeth); a man at peace with others, with the state of things, with living in the present. A man writing daily the novel he so wants to but can't seem to. Thank you for such startling honesty. Thanks for sharing, caring, listening. Thanks for this outlet. Allen.
Hi Allen. Oof, it's hard, that genius-to-dickwad-in-30-seconds cycle, isn't it? Fortunately it's not true, even though it might feel it. We're all just right-sized and trying. I hope you're feeling connected and in the flow this week. Thank you for writing.
This is a lovely post Ellie and I do hope more people are paying for the privilege of reading your thoughts. Its worth it. The strategies you mention are all about connection and sacrifice, to make sacred. I know you have also been taught by my dear friend Valentin and I hope to meet him in a couple of weeks in London and catch up. He is off to Toulouse next week. I love the picture with the dog, how much we need the non-human world now!
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Hi, David, and thanks so much for this lovely comment. Yes -- connection and sacrifice to make sacred, exactly that. I think it's all about remembering the original unity of all things and trying to act and create and feel from and into that unity. Say hi to Valentin from me!
Jesus Christ, with the exception that I'm not you, you not me, you've written the fucking screenplay of my life, Ellie. From genius to dickwad in 30 seconds. I know this. Trying to become what is expected; my life performative more often than lived. Trying to write in a whirlwind of oh-so-self-conscious doubt. Haunted by the ghosts of past failures. Smart but so dumb. Always striving to tell my ugly, ugly alcoholic, violent father the news, that I didn't become his prophesy for me: a waste of space, or, as he termed it, a garbage man. Dear Dad, oh to be a happy, confident, smiling garbage man these days. A man that channels the big magic (thank you Elizabeth); a man at peace with others, with the state of things, with living in the present. A man writing daily the novel he so wants to but can't seem to. Thank you for such startling honesty. Thanks for sharing, caring, listening. Thanks for this outlet. Allen.
Hi Allen. Oof, it's hard, that genius-to-dickwad-in-30-seconds cycle, isn't it? Fortunately it's not true, even though it might feel it. We're all just right-sized and trying. I hope you're feeling connected and in the flow this week. Thank you for writing.